Humble As I Can Be...But Strong As I Gotta Be

Okay so I was sent home last night from work because of my puffy watery eyes and told to find out what was wrong with them before I could return to work. Well apart me welcomed the front door turn around because that meant I could go back home and get in my warm cozy bed that I had so abruptly left behind...*Dee~Dee in her best Elmo voice..."sorry bed" Anywho, on the other hand I was a bit upset because not only was I planning to use my extra vacation days to go out of town soon, I may have to use those days now because Lord knows I can't afford to have any pay missing from my chk! And I road in with one of my co-workers and this meant that I now have no way of getting home unless I call someone to come pick me up. *Mental note to self...Dee~Dee right now you are the only one you can count on so get used to it okay? Good...let's continue*

Okay so at this point I am thinking who can I call to come and get me...1 There's my Mother who wouldn't mind except she is finally going back to work after being on sick leave and is probably sleep right about now. 2 I could call my sister who is always up late...she is a night owl for sure. However she has 2 children that are probably sleep right about now because they have school in the morning. 3 I could call one of my girlfriends...but then again 2 of them are married and I wouldn't want them to be in hot water with their significant others...and the others are single and free and are probably somewhere partying the rest of the weekend away somewhere. 4 Tony who works right in the area where I do and was almost off anyway...it's the least he can do right? Well after murch deliberation and frustration my sister came to get me...here's why...

Lemme ask you this folks. Why do ppl see/hear the phone ringing and don't answer it and then claim they didn't hear it ringing? It's a phone ringing ppl...what can't you hear about it? Esplly cell phones I mean they are on your person...phones that are on your body somewhere you should hear first! Okay whatever on that. So of course by now you guessed that none of my first thought contacts answered their phones. Not even Tony and he was at work...and get this he is an armed security officer and he is allowed to use his ear piece for communication whenever need be, so naturally I knew he would answer the phone. (esplly since he was on it the night/morning he called me and asked could he come over...*dee~dee with one eyebrow raised*) Well when he didn't answer, I got upset (a little) See the buses are not running by now and I am definitely not going to walk to the train...sorry folks spoiled side coming out there. Well when no one answered or was available to come and get my watery eyed behind, that's when I called my sister. (thanks Kim)

I hate having to depend on other ppl. I hate it with a passion folks. I get that from my mother who has always been a woman of strength and independence. But how many of you know that sometimes you will be put in a sitch where you have no other choice but to ask for help. Sunday mornings sermon was about how we as Christians have to learn how to ask for help. We are so busy trying to hide that fact that we need ppl sometimes, that we miss out on what God really wants to do for us through other ppl. Now don't get me wrong there are some ppl that I wouldn't trust with carrying my bags to the car let alone ask for help from. However I have to learn (cause I still am trying...) to humble myself at times. It's hard I tell you!

Well right when my sister called to tell me she was about 10 minutes away, my cell phone rang (and guess what? I heard it and answered it!) and it was Tony calling me back to ask me what was up. I told him why I had called and he gave some long drawn out speech about why he didn't answer the phone..."that's all well and good, but how come when I need you, you are never available?" We of course had this 20 min convo about it and then we hung up from one another.

Folks all I know is this...

I am (just as) Weak as I will be(cause everyone is at one point)...and I am working on that...

I am Humble as I have to be...and I see the where that can work for me...

and I am Strong as I gotta be...Cause strength abides in me.

This whole thing and some other things got me to thinking about this song by Syleena Johnson called 'Only A Woman' ( track 15) I love this song so murch ya'll...it's the TRUTH!

Until we READ again, (jacked from Twin)

Dee~Dee