A Super-Woman's Diary

Things you may wonder while daydreaming.... 1. Sleep in the nude? Sometimes depending on how hot it is. 2. Last 5 songs u want to hear before u die. Never would have made it (Marvin Sapp) Bruised but not broken (Joss Stone) Imagine me (Kirk Franklin) Encourage urself (Donald Lawrence) L.O.V.E (Joss Stone) 3. Last 5 movies u want to see before u die. Legends of the Fall, Brown Sugar, Five Heartbeats, Hitch, Disappearing Acts 4. Last 5 things u'll eat before u die. Pizza, wheat chex, chicken enchalilads, Friday's chicken and Shrimp skillet, McDonalds Fish sandwich 4. Things that disturb u greatly. Liars, Users, phony ppl, and tapping me on my body instead of simply calling my name! 5. I always wonder.... ....why I have such bad luck with men. 6. The Bible. The best 3 books in it, and why? Esther, Proverbs and Isaiah. Esther becuz it speaks of one womans courage and strength to do Gods will. Proverbs becuz it details a womans charge in the kingdom of God. And Isaiah becuz....well ...

Just because u think I'm not small enough, doesn't mean I'm not beautiful. Current mood: Nostalgic Category: Romance and Relationships I have spent the most part of my life trying to look the way others wanted me to. I was anorexic/bulimic for about 5 years of my life. From 91 til about 96. I didn't want to gain anymore weight and I was hell bent on losing the weight I already had. It was a horrible time in my life. I didn't tell anyone...no one knew. I was in love with this guy that considered me only a notch in his belt. I hated him and I loved him at the same time. At least I thought it was love. It might have been lust and raging hormones. Whatever it was I was in deep. And all while I was in whatever I was in with this guy, he did not see me at all. I felt like Angie in 'Saturday Night Fever' when she tried to get Tony to notice her. She was one sad individual. I think I regurgitated water trying to get small enough for him to notice me. Then I...