A Super-Woman's Diary

My Passion....

Lord I have an over active imagination. I use this to my advantage at times when my mind is so full of JUNK as I refer to it. I take myself places only you know about, only sometimes I find it hard to come back. Sometimes I don't really like Reality all that much. Especially when the Reality your used to sucks! I mean between this WAR I am still not clear on. The Senseless shootings and My broken and lonely heart , I seriously need an escape sometimes. I can dream up people and places in a matter of seconds .(I should write a book) the sad part of it all is when I have to come back to Reality it's hard to let go. I want the world I conjure up in my mind so bad I can almost taste it. A world where I have never known what a Broken Heart feels like. A world where my Single Family home was a two parent home, with a picket fence and a yard. A world where my 3 Unborn Children were in my arms and not in heaven. A world where my Mother and I were never at odds and

Father I miss my things!!! Okay so I am acting like a brat right now throwing a tantrum...a hissy fit if you will, but I miss having my own apartment. I miss my clothes. I miss my shoes....I miss my BED! Don't get me wrong I am not ungrateful for the lovely couch I am currently sleeping on at my sisters house, but come on now Lord, is this really the life you have for me? I think NOT! You said I should not be in any LACK! Well, I am lacking a lot of things right now Father, yet I am standing on your word. I know the plan that God has for my life must be Super Fantastic, because this is some mess right here! I want the Lord to continue to teach me all the right ways to govern my life for a better future, because this must NEVER EVER happen again! :)

Well Lord, I asked for a door to be opened and your did just that. At first I was a bit sceptical about this new job position seeing how it's only 2days a week, and 4 hours a day, but there is so much potential there God, and I am so grateful. It has been and still is a long road that I have to travel, but I have always been the type to take the road less traveled by. I used to think that if a thing doesn't happen when I wanted it to or in the way I wanted it to, that God had forgotten about me or my requests. Now I realize that God's Delay is not a Denial. I have learned to have so much gratitude for the small things, so that when the BIG things manifest I will know how to govern...lol! As I talked with my good friend Traci the other day and she told me how much of an inspiration I was to her, I began to cry. Most times I feel like I am a pitiful example of Strength, Courage and Wisdom and my friends are fools for thinking I lead by example. But that is not the case. She s