A Super-Woman's Diary

Psalms 92 What a beautiful thing, God, to give thanks, to sing an anthem to you, the High God! To announce your love each daybreak, sing your faithful presence all through the night, Accompanied by dulcimer and harp, the full-bodied music of strings. You made me so happy, God. I saw your work, and I shouted for joy. How magnifcent your work, God! How profound your thoughts! Dullards never notice what you do; fools never do get it. When the wicked popped up like weeds and all the evil men and women took over, You mowed them down, finished them off once and for all. You, God, are High and Eternal. Look at your enemies, God! Look at your enemies -ruined! Scattered to the winds, all those hirelings of evil! But you've made me strong as a charging bison, you've honored me with a festive parade. The sigh t of my critics going down is still fresh, the rout of my malicious detractors. My ears are filled with the sounds of promise: "Good people will prosper like palm trees, Grow ta...

So I am crying my eyes out yet again, but it's not over some guy...thank God! These tears stem from the pain I have endured from the words and actions of my Mother. "Hello my name is Deirdre and my Mother has a gambling problem" Whew! It does feel better when you let it out. For as long as I can remember my Mother has had a gambling addiction. As a child it was cards and poker games on the weekends with her loud and crazy friends. Then as I became an adult it turned into Casino's and Online slot machines. I can remember as a child when we had to live from friend to friend and in the back of someone's record shop. Then when we finally managed to get our own place, we moved so much that people thought we were spys or some mess. I can remember living in about 8 different apartments growing up. As a child/pre-teen I really didn't understand what to make of it all. It was difficult to say the least, but I managed to become a peaceful adult. During the early part of...

*All Info provided by Wikipedia * Also check out: http://sidekickaddicted.blogspot.com/ for the "I Have A Dream Speech" Happy Martin L. King Jr. Day! Current mood: blessed Category: Religion and Philosophy Martin Luther King, Jr., (January 15, 1929-April 4, 1968) was born Michael Luther King, Jr., but later had his name changed to Martin. His grandfather began the family's long tenure as pastors of the Ebenezer Baptist Church in Atlanta, serving from 1914 to 1931; his father has served from then until the present, and from 1960 until his death Martin Luther acted as co-pastor. Martin Luther attended segregated public schools in Georgia, graduating from high school at the age of fifteen; he received the B. A. degree in 1948 from Morehouse College, a distinguished Negro institution of Atlanta from which both his father and grandfather had graduated. After three years of theological study at Crozer Theological Seminary in Pennsylvania where he was elected president of a pr...

I just had to post these photos of the lil Man of God in the molding. I never met such a good baby. He eats when he is supposed to eat. Sleeps when he is supposed to sleep, and only attempts a slight whimper when he's wet. His parents couldn't have asked for a more wonderful and Blessed child. Had to share this. Until we read again, Deirdre

Tired of being lonely at night. Thinking about what Evolution really means. Making excuses for people instead of dealing with them head-on. Hates how her relationship with her Mother is turning out. Thinking it's been long enough. Thinking too much really. Wanting more out of life. Hoping for bigger and better things this year. Missing her Father finally. Upset he made the discission he made when she was 17. Not going to hold a grudge anymore though. Masturbating too much these days. Afraid she will go blind. Laughing her butt off! Not prepared for the future at all Sick of games and mind tricks. Just as screwed up as the next chick. Still hurting from the past. Grateful for second chances. Starting to catch another cold. Up at 3:46am and wants to go to sleep. Regreting that day spent with Mike. Sorry if that hurts his feelings. Tired of being taking advantage of. Wanting to start a family of her own. Always right even though she's wrong. About to have a nervous breakdown! In l...

*Note: this one is long, but worth the read* When choosing a Mate or Your Mate choosing you...First we must allow our Heavenly Father to do the picking. And second, the decision for a mate must be made on a spiritual and intellectual basis before it's made on an emotional one. "What about love? Shouldn't that be the third? you ask. No, and I'll tell you why. "The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? (Jeremiah 17:9). The heart is willful and is driven by its own agenda. It does not consider things rationally and intelligently it just loves to love! Therefore you have to point it in the right direction: "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the well spring of life" (Proverbs 4:23) Whenever you meet a man, you need to get clearance from God, check out his attributes, and then allow your heart to engage. Dating exists not for mating; it exists for collecting data. I believe that the biblical design would be frie...

W hat do you do when the phone rings and it's not him? What happens when a txt msg comes thru and u wish it was him? I wrote a poem about it, wanna hear it? Here it go... Red hot are my feelings for him. I think about him all the time. Yellow is the sun when it comes up in the morning and sprinkles a ray of light in his window to wake him up. I pray for that light to shine on him. I want him to know what it looks like when he sees it on me. Pink are my lips so soft like two tiny little pillows...."Got me feinin for his lips on my kiss..." I'm Green with envy that I can't feel his touch yet another woman does. Purple rain plays in the background as I try to drown my sadness in song. Orange peels in bed... Orange peels in my bed, I'm so Blue without you. White sheets so crisp and cold. I hate going to bed alone. Hey Brown eyed girl get a grip on yourself!...his Black heart won't allow him to see what's right in front of him. ~Deirdre Edw...

Okay so it is a new year and that means new things are about to happen. The old things maybe be old, but they still exist. I had a really wonderful year through all the problems, ups and downs, ins and outs, situations and circumstances. I have to say that I had a pretty good year over all....because I'm still ALIVE! 2007 in review: January: The month of "New beginnings" I had gone through so much in 2006, that I was more then ready to start a fresh in 2007. I was working as a Medical Assistant and was going on 2 years there, when all Hell broke loose! So I had to really pull on God in order to even have the strength to get up and go to work every day...but I SURVIVED! February: The month of "Growth" During this month I learn a lot about how to keep my feelings OFF my shoulder. I grew up mentally and spiritually. I had a lot of help with this process let me tell you....their names were Angi...