Naomi Says I'm Not Healed...

Okay so I get this email from J***** A BOY from the past.......

Hello Dee Dee this is J*****. I know you might not recognize this email so I thought I would tell you who I am. How are u? I saw H***** the other day and I asked him how you were. I find myself thinking about you all the time now a days. I thought about the first time I met you. Do you remember that night? You were so scared of those motorcycles. I thought you were so cute. I remember your smile, it was so big, you made everyone smile. I also have been thinking about the night at my mother's apartment up north, you remember that? Your hands smelled like money. You used to work with that money all the time remember? I wanted to ask him for your number, but I thought you would not want to speak to me. I can understand if you didn't or you don't. I did you wrong Dee and I know it. I told tasha one time that you were my special girl. I know I said it in a joking way, but it was the truth. I have to say that I miss you very much. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. I miss your lips. I miss how you used to listen to me or try to get me to talk about what I was feeling. Believe it or not I loved that. You have been gone for awhile and we haven't talked in years but I miss you. It is taking a lot for me to even say these things to you Dee. I have wanted to say these things for years but just didn't have the nerve. I would like to meet you somewhere so we can talk more and even enjoy each other's company like we used to back in the day. I have changed since those days and I would like to show you that if you let me. Call me or reply to this email when you get it. Call me at 773.***.**** if you want to. I hope you want to..

WTF? CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS MESS? THIS MAN MUST BE OUT OF HIS FREAKING MIND!!! SO FAR I HAVE MANAGED TO GET THIS MAN OUT OF MY SYSTEM. I HAVE MANAGED TO STOP HATING HIM AND I HAVE SET HIM FREE SO THAT THE LORD CAN PROPERLY DEAL WITH HIM. EVER SINCE THE DAY OF MY FIRST BROKEN HEART FROM THIS MAN, I HAVE BEEN TRYING LIKE HELL TO MEND IT BACK TOGETHER AGAIN. FIRST OF ALL NOT ONCE IN THIS EMAIL DID HE APOLOGIZE FOR HURTING ME THE WAY HE DID. HE MENTIONED IT, BUT HE DIDN'T APOLOGIZE FOR IT. THEN TO TOP ALL THAT OFF HE HAS THE NERVE TO ASK ME TO CALL HIM AND MEET HIM SOMEWHERE! WHAT DOES HE TAKE ME FOR? NOW I AM GLAD THAT HE HAS MADE PIECE WITHIN HIMSELF, WHICH IS WHY HE EVEN EMAILED ME IN THE FIRST PLACE I AM GUESSING. BUT, HE HAS SOME NERVE THINKING THAT SOME LITTLE TRIP DOWN MEMORY LANE WAS GOING TO MAKE FEEL ALL WARM INSIDE AND CALL HIS RAGGEDY TAIL. I HAVE COME TO FAR FOR THAT MESS RIGHT THERE SON!!!!

So I sent this reply....

J*****, I have set you free mind, body and soul and I refuse to pick that mess up again.. I hope that one day you will find ENOUGH courage to repent to me properly and in the manner in which God intended. I know first hand how hard it is to apologize to someone you have wronged or mistreated, so I give you the benefit of the doubt for this half baked attempted. I don't hate you...as a matter of fact I love you. You want to know why? Because in order for me to make Heaven my home, I must love you. God has brought me to far to turn back now and I broke the reverse knob on my heart long time ago.

Take care,
Dee Dee

I tell you the enemy can really bring things your way when you are trying to do things God's way. Plus why is it when you are dating someone, men from your past ALL WAYS seemed to show up out of now where? Why Lord!!! *smiling*

What do you think?
U.W.R.A:)