A Super-Woman's Diary

"You laugh at me because I'm different, I laugh at you because you're all the same." ~ Unknown * Will my head ever stop hurting? It feels like little tiny people are jumping around in my head right now. * definitely gonna do it tonight... Dye my hair Zeddy...Dye my hair:) * Gonna go shopping with my girl Millz... That oughta be fun! * Wonder if I should buy those jeans this weekend?...Hummmmmmm. * If they find out I'm dead...well I will die....No I take that back...I'll kill them! *Why does he keep txting me? I don't like him. *Is it to late for me to join the Army? Go Army.com be all you can be Dee~Dee....lol:) * Seems like a Monday to me. I'm bored as heck right now. * Bulls pulled one off huh? That's interesting... *Kevin Garnett looks good in a Pinstriped suit! Damn! *Traci sent me a pick today...it really blew my mind! *Wanna see it? *What woman can take all that in? Huh? Tell me... *The Snitch is a lonely woman...I think she needs some dingal...

Okay so I am feeling a little sad right now. I feel like crying but the tears just won't come out. Maybe that is just the Lord's way of telling me to get over myself. I don't know...all I know is that I am sad. I was on the bus yesterday on my way home and when the bus driver finally reached the bus terminal, after being held up by a train that took forever to go pass, there were five loud boisterous women waiting to get on. They each had a little baby either in a stroller or on their hip....little babies...Practically newborns. Anyway, they get on and they are just as loud as they could be. Calling one another the "B" word and cursing up a storm. One girl in particular had her baby on one arm and a cigarette in her hand...blowing smoke all in the baby's face. It made me sick to my stomach I tell you that. I was so out done. They get on and hold up the line of other people waiting to get on. and one girl let's her babies stroller down and leaves it in the ...

Okay so I am at the Fudruckers with the fam celebrating my oldest nephews birthday on Saturday...the same day as my break~up from my "so called" ...speaking of that, I am reading this wonderful book entitled What did I do wrong? by Liz Pryor . It's about the break~ups that no one talks about...those of the "girlfriends" I mean we talk to our girlfriends about the break~ups we have with our boyfriends, but who can we talk to about the break~ups with our "girlfriends"? Interesting isn't it? Good reading. Chk it out if you want. Anyway, so were walking in the restaurant and behind us are these tech's or nurses or whatever they were from the hospital near by. I think they were on lunch or something. So I walk in and go up to the counter to place my order. Two of the women were right behind me and the other two were at my side. My Mother and nephews were on my other side and my sister was bringing up the rear. Well I knew exactly what I wanted caus...

Okay so told myslef that I wasn't gonna lose any sleep over that little thing that happened on yesterday concerning my "So Called" and me, but dangit I can't get my mind off that ish! It was the most un~called for mess that I have ever had the dis~pleasure of enduring...and that is saying alot about this here thing, because I have endured some whoppers in my lifetime. Now, since this thing had me tossing and turning all night long, I had to re~evaluate the whole thing from the very beginning. I mean this thing had me so upset that I developed a very uncomfortable toothache on the side of my mouth that doesn't even have any cavities. The pain was so bad it woke me right up out of my sleep and I couldn't even find my way back. Now I am at work minus my normal fresh and fabulous looking self, and I have to take this look on to a party celebrating my nephews 15th birthday *Happy Birthday Bobble!*... maybe I will stop by Walgreens and pick up some Neutrogen clean ...

"Friend...there will never be a Friend...as Dear to me as You. There will never be a Blood...closer then a Brother. Friend, always worth the wait...Faithful as the day, you said we are friends..." Israel New Breed Okay so I was sitting here working hard for my money when a "So Called" called my cell and since we are not allowed to use cell phones at work, I called her back on the company phone. *taking time to breathe*.......I don't have the time nor the brain power right now to get into what she said...how the conversation went...or anything like that. All I can say is that she and I are no longer friends and that this makes the 5th one in like four months. You see when God is taking you to ANOTHER LEVEL in him, you lose the "So Calleds" almost instantly. At that moment of losing her "friendship", I turned on my Ipod and pressed shuffle...and wouldn't you know it God spoke to my heart. 'Friend' by Israel New Breed was playi...

The Thursday Thirteen will return next week.... Okay so today I am in my first pair of........of......Oh God I can't even say it......Sneakers! That's right Gym shoes if you will. It is the most un~natural thing...ever. I mean I feel like a boy in these things. I don't feel feminine at all. I don't! I was on the bus today and when I tried to cross my legs, it felt awkward. I tried the left, I tried the right, but nothing felt right to me. I just felt plain. Then I had to get off the bus and pick up a cake from Jewels and when I walked in the store, I felt like everyone was looking at my feet. And then the cake design lady tried to give me an attitude when I asked her to put a name on the cake. And let me tell you it is hard to get huffy in scrubs and.....*looking like I am about to vomit* Gym shoes. I made it work though. I mean she was putting words on another cake so me being a customer, why couldn't she put words on my cake as well. That's a whole other story...

Okay so I went Car shopping on Saturday and let me say it is more then a notion. I went online and found the car that I wanted at CarMax and did all my home work and what not only to get a complete run around when I got there. First of all why do men think women don't know a single thing about cars? That really burns me up when they do that. I mean I know more then you think I know. I once had to teach myself how to drive a stick when the repo man came to take my ex...ex....ex....ex...ex....ex....ex (you get the point right?) sex buddies car one day. I jumped in and parked that boy around the corner and didn't even bat an eyelash. Maybe it was the adrenaline that moved me to do it...or maybe it was the thought of his penis that did the trick. Either way I was moved. So when I got to the car place and dude treated me like a dumb blonde...I got pissed! I called one of my guy friends to come with me just so the presence of a man, would make them ease up off your girl. So when we a...