The End...


September 29, 2009

Eight years. Eight years I loved a man that would never be mine. I cared
more about him then I did myself. How do I know, because I am the only
one crying that's how I know. I would have climbed a mountain if he
asked me to. And with bleeding fingers I would have climbed some more. I
have never felt this way about anyone, ever. And I doubt I ever will.

He said something to me tonight that finally let me know it (whatever it
was) was over. "Take it easy sweets." He said take it
easy....woooooo(breathe girl...breathe) I guess he was right, I don't
know how to be just friends and not want a relationship. Hell, all I
ever wanted was a relationship. I don't know how to be one of those
girls that just take what they can get. That s**t hurts too much. I felt
something that was just not there.

I have so much to say but I can't seem to put it in words right now. I
love that man. I truly do. And letting him go hurts like hell right now.
I don't like this pain. I don't like the way this feels. I was never his
lady. I was always the "Katie girl" that's what I get for thinking too
big. That's what I get for stepping out of my box. I gave away too much.
I don't want it back.

Etta James says it best: "I'd rather go blind then to watch u walk outta
my life I'd rather be blind, then to see you walk away from me. I'd
rather be blind"

September 29, 2009....

The End

Until We Read Again,
iDeirdre

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