Crush Antics of A Dee-Dee...These Are My Confessions Pt 1

Has anyone ever had a secret crush and didn't quite know how to deal with it? I mean this type of ish is case sensitive! If you say or do the wrong thing it could have an adverse effect on the out come of the crush situation. I have been crushing on this dude I know for a while now, and I am quite sure that he knows it. I mean I don't make things painfully obvious, but I am crushing hard...(no Mills it's not him) Okay so these are my confessions and I hope I get a release from this nightmare soon.

Well there is this guy that I know and he seems to to be really cool ppl. I mean we have talked via email and what not but we haven't actually "met". Why is it that when you have a crush on someone even in your "wise" of age, it's hard to tell them how you really feel? Well it's only hard for me I guess...cause I have a few girls that would just run up on dude and say what's what!:) Why haven't I learned how to do that? I just can't see myself saying some ish like..."eh hem *dee-dee clears her throat* Hey now! what's good? Ummm I'm really feeling you and I was wondering if you would like to grab a bite to eat or maybe have conversation over a cup of coffee...." WTF? I can't do that right there...I just can't! I would feel like such a fool...I know I know...Diva , Mills , and quite possibly BkBabe are gonna let me have it, but I am just being honest. What's my main motto folks..."I am the first one to admit my flaws" However my witty banter and beaming smile were designed to hide them...*wink*

I mean this guy seems to be awesome. He makes me think and I love that in a man...*batting eyelashes* He is sweet, compassionate, honest with his feelings, open, funny, sympathetic and murch murch more...*smiling*
These are the guys that you go to God about and ask.."Lord where these brothas at...huh?" I mean I posted something a while back that asked the question "where are all the good men at?" They are at home taking care of home and the losers are out here picking up girls in clubs by "assuming" they know you and trying to read your behind during a verse of what ever the DJ has spinnin at the time. Ahhhhhh! this is why my crush antics are so high, because I wish like h*ll I could met a man like this one who is about the business of wanting a long lasting relationship and not just an on/off sexcapade.

I am getting sort of tired of the whole game anyway...I mean I can count on one hand...one hand how many men I have been with sexually and on two hands how many I have dated. I am just an old fashioned girl with some high tech freaky tendencies...*tongue sticking out* LMAO!! that was funny!:) Well until I get up my nerve...these are my confessions:)