A Super-Woman's Diary

From Me To You...Almost When this seasons comes along, I always want to wish everyone in the entire world a very Merry Christmas. Then I think about all the people that are less fortunate then I am. So I want to encourage then to keep the Faith..... Hey, Everyone is not as fortunate as I am right? Happy Holidays...Everyone!

Okay, so I told you guys about my very harrowing experience and Green eyed CSI encounter, well I am back with part two of the on going saga I like to call “My Life” I tell you folks, I should sign myself up for one of those reality TV shows and make myself millions. I would call it “Diva Down In Aisle 7” It would be like “Being Bobby Brown” minus the cracked out, fowl mouth wife and court appearances of course. My ratings will go through the roof! Well let’s see since part 1 I have had major oral surgery and conjunctivitis in my right eye, which the Doctor said could have caused me to go blind in that eye; had I waited another day. That alone makes me shout “Thank you Jesus!” Could you imagine me wearing a patch over one eye like some old broken down Jack Sparrow…I was so grateful. Anyway, during that time I had to take almost a week off, and let me tell you that was so very hard for me. I am a true Virgo, and my mind has to be stimulated at all times…if not…you lost me for sure. I...

Okay so I told you about the ins and outs of my recent departure from my old apartment building, and the hurt and pain that has caused me. Well that is not all folks. Why is it that whenever you are going through in one area of your life, others areas become effected? I’ll tell you why…it’s because Sorrow has no Boundaries. It does just not confound to one area of the spectrum. Its wings are as wide as the sea and it covers a multitude. Now if you have read the book of Genesis, and get to the part where God is looking down on the wonderful thing he had done and he looked at Adam and thought….ummm “Man looks lonely…” right there you will find that it was God who felt like Adam was lonely and Adam himself. So with that being taught, we do NOT have that spirit of loneliness, it is only a trick of the enemy designed to confuse us and bring upon hurt and pain. So why then do I not take this teaching into account and use it for His Glory? I have an answer for that one as well. It’s easy t...

*thanks to everyone that checked in on me while I was gone* Okay so I have been away for quite some time, and I have to say that I truly miss blogging and reading other bloggers thoughts. I have been through the storm and the rain folks and let me tell you…it’s been RAINING! First off I have had to move out of my apartment last minute. Not because I was evicted or anything, but because of the living conditions. They were not befitting a Diva in no sense of the word. I was living well beneath my means. First of all the building in which I USED TO RESIDE was old as hell. …“Vintage” as my nephew likes to call it….an “old as hell, unnecessary waste of brick” is how I love to refer to it. I mean this building was run by two of the oldest, sickly people I have ever met…then they sold it to a young slumlord …”Landscum” is the name I so affectionately call him. (jerk) Anyway, my apartment was the pits and I kept on trying to turn that ugly duck into a swan…with no luck of course. I mean...

Okay so I get this email from J***** A BOY from the past....... Hello Dee Dee this is J*****. I know you might not recognize this email so I thought I would tell you who I am. How are u? I saw H***** the other day and I asked him how you were. I find myself thinking about you all the time now a days. I thought about the first time I met you. Do you remember that night? You were so scared of those motorcycles. I thought you were so cute. I remember your smile, it was so big, you made everyone smile. I also have been thinking about the night at my mother's apartment up north, you remember that? Your hands smelled like money. You used to work with that money all the time remember? I wanted to ask him for your number, but I thought you would not want to speak to me. I can understand if you didn't or you don't. I did you wrong Dee and I know it. I told tasha one time that you were my special girl. I know I said it in a joking way, but it was the truth. I have to say that I miss ...

Okay well the day is almost over and my nephew is 6 years old. Wow 6...I can remember when he was born. He was so little and he couldn't stand my yellow behind! He would always cry and act a fool when I would come around. It used to hurt my heart so bad, but I of course got over it. I remember when he started kindergarten where I used to teach. He was so scared and wanted to go home. He at this point still didn't like me very much and I wanted to help him adjust. Well he had cried so much that he made himself sick. When I went to take him in my arms he threw up all over me. Now the girlie girl that I am wanted to push him away and run in the ladies room to clean up. Inside I was screaming!!!! But I didn't. I picked him up and took him in the wash room and cleaned him up instead of myself. I think that show of pure love made him loosen up with me and we have been cool ever since. To this day he wants to go everywhere I am and calls me every night to say "I Love You...

Okay so this post won't be long at all. I am writing it as I am getting ready for work, and some how I just can't get this ish off my mind. This past Saturday I had to work and I didn't get off until around 4pm. Well I was supposed to attend a fabulous wedding on the Gold Coast and I had yet to get a gift. Well I had it all planned out that after work I was going to swing on by the house slip into something fabulous, swing on by my favorite department store, pick up a great gift and make the reception at least. Well my girl called me at work and asked me was I still coming and I told her that I will be running late. I told her that I had yet to pick up a gift and she offered to pick one up for me. 1st mistake I told her what I was looking for and I arranged to pay her when I got to the wedding. When I got home I called her to check on the progress of the gift she was buying and she didn't answer the phone. Well, since I was already running late and I absolutely hate bei...

Email From Linny: Subject: Every Woman Should Know A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE... A set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra. (1 out of 2 ain't bad...right?) A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...One friend who always makes her laugh... And one who lets her cry... (check) A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...A good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family ...(check) A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE at least 4 matching plates, Wine glasses with stems, and a recipe for a meal that will make her guests feel honored. (check) A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE...A feeling of control over her destiny ...(damn...) EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... How to fall in love without losing herself ...(I don't know if I totally agree with this here one...) EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... HOW TO QUIT A JOB, BREAK UP WITH A LOVER AND CONFRONT A FRIEND WITHOUT RUINING THE FRIENDSHIP ...(check) EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... When to try harder ... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY .(working on it) EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... That she can...

13 Msgs on Myspace from total jerks. 12 Were pretty suggestive. 11 Minutes went by before the phone rang...I wanted to scream! 10 Days until my youngest nephews birthday!!!! Awwww Jaylend:) 09 Days until pay day. Don't come asking for any money ...(tee hee) 08 Pairs of stockings left in the drawer. 07 Boxes to start packing with. 06 Is how old my nephew will be...he's growing up so fast. 05 Minutes til I fall asleep at this computer. 04 Mice I found in the past 5 months...I'm so sick of this place! 03 Times we talked today...that's pretty good don't you think? 02 More Weeks until Wicked! And... 01 More day until I view my new apartment! It's been a long time coming *sigh of relief* Tick Tock...Tick Tock U.W.R.A:)

Okay so when I first started blogging, I was using this template that I am using now. I loved it at first sight because it was Pink. It didn't have any fancy shmancy graphics or none of that...it was pink and I loved it. Well I found this new template called "Top Secret" it look like an FBI file folder and I loved it. That is until it gave me the heebeedabageebees! I couldn't get that thing to act right worth a darn. So I went back to my throwback from the gate template...hey! that rhymed:) Anyway, to mark this occasion...I am posting a throwback revelation as well...enjoy! 08.22.05 Summer Of Sommerio, An Ode To Him...* A Spoken Word Post* (singing) How could an angel break my heart? Why didn't he catch my falling star(singing)...and make wish? Man I'm pissed! right now - at how - this manchild could go to such lengths to shut me out - without a doubt he captured me, cultivated me...I was caught! In a web of lies and deceit - I was trying to be discreet and m...

"I'd stuff myself into your reason/I'd lye real close and cling/I'd get small I'd even crawl for the madness you would bring/Find comfort in your tangled words/I'd be sharper then your grief/I'd gather up into the dust all of your fears/And live in the corners of what you believe/What you believe/I'd conjure up a second heart/To handle your sweet pain/I'd love you so hard/Other folks would have to strain to hear/Become your shadow and haunt/Every day of you walk/Don't you want/Just a taste/This sickness is a mutant bliss/It's a slow steady shaking into thinking/I'd evaporate without your hate/To remind I'm still here/I'm still here/I'd conjure up a second heart to handle your sweet pain/I'd love you so hard/Other folks would have to strain to hear/I'll become your shadow and haunt/Everyday of your walk/Don't you want/Just a taste." Sweet Pain by Cree Summer Okay, so I just came in from the most wonderful t...

Okay so I was at work today and I was feeling fine...you know like any other day...Then all of a sudden this feeling of sadness just engulfed me like an inferno. I began to cry and literally could not stop. Well eventually I got a grip on myself and things got back to normal. Then after work I took a stroll through the mall, not to make a purchase which I am proud to announce was a success! Anyway, as I was peering into the Macy's window like a friggin peeping tom, I saw someone who I thought I would never see in a million years. He literally looked the same as he did the last time I saw him. I mean it was almost as if he was wearing the exact same outfit he was wearing when we said what was to be our final "see you" Well once I snapped out of the whole starring thing, I gathered my thoughts and darted off in the opposite direction of Macy's all together. (See I told you I didn't buy nothing) I walked so fast back to my car and sat there all slumped down in the d...

"I told you I don't see you that way. I'm sorry. I just don't see you in that way Phillip, I see you as a good friend someone to talk to. Why can't you understand that? Then you get quite and upset when I tell you how I feel....Phillip, Phillip?" Click! He hung up on me...Wow! How do you tell someone that you are just not into them the way they are into you? How do you get someone to realize that they will never be anything more to you then a friend? I thought I had it all figured out. But I realize I don't. I mean he is a nice guy and all, I just don't see him like that. I see him as my buddy pal, you know the guy that I tell things to and share thing with. He is not my best friend or anything but we have a lot in common. We attend the same church and have fun hanging out, but that's it. Plus I think he has a spirit of homosexuality following him. Two of his best friends are gay and I think he might be as well. That's not the main reason I don...

Okay so I went to this midnight wedding the other night, and I was pit face to face with one of my biggest fears….that’s right I, Dee Dee, have a fear that is so catastrophic that I am (at times) afraid to even speak it. I have a fear of approaching men…there I said it. I don’t know if it’s because I secretly fear being rejected or if it’s because I was just raised never to do that sort of thing…like it was some type of disease or something. What ever the case may be, I can’t stand it and I know because of this very fear, I have probably let the one slip right through my fingertips…or I am in danger of letting him slip through my finger tips. I can’t help it…my throat becomes very dry, my palms get all sweaty, I becomes mad nervous, and when I do manage to find the right words to say…I can’t seem to get my brain to tell my mouth, so I wind up running off somewhere. Well the night of the wedding I ran straight for the liquid refreshment and played the invisible woman all night. Hidin...

Okay so I went to this ‘Midnight Wedding' last night, well this morning. And I have to say it was very nice. It was well planned and well thought out. It was sort of on this dinner theater vibe. I have to admit at first I thought it was going to a mess, but when I stepped into the room, my mind was changed. Before I even got ready to go, I was telling my girl Tamika about it and she said the same thing I said when I first received the invitation …. ”that’s different.” I thought so too and I made things worst in my head by giving it thumbs down from the jump. But my girl Tamika without knowing it changed my mind before I even got there. I am the kind of person that has to see it to believe it…well only on something’s…for when it comes to the Lord, I never know what I’m going to get. Well I chatted with my girl for a while then it was off to the ‘Midnight Wedding’ Now when I got the invite to this wedding that was to take place at the stroke of midnight, I was like h*ll naw! Me mis...

Okay so this story might go from one extreme to another...by that I mean, I might pull a Quentin Turrintino (chk spelling) I have so much going through my head right now, that I really want to slap someone. Okay, have you ever loaned someone some money and they act like they forgot? I mean not that people don't honestly forget things but...MONEY!!!! you don't forget that ish!!!! Well at that is my opinion on that there one. There is this lady who belongs to my church, and in my opinion I think she is CRAZY! and she needs to be on medication. I first met her when she joined the church and she became close to my best friend Deb. After that we, started to talk at church only and sometime with some people that is the way I prefer it. Well my girlfriend Deb told her that I knew how to Braid hair and she gave her my number. (that didn't bother me at first...but you know once the mess jumped off, I had to through it in her face later....now back to the story) She wanted individual...

I was reading my friends blog today and I came across this lovely meme...I love these things...so here I go: I am not: The woman that I should be however, I am not the woman I used to be. Now that's real talk right there! I hurt: The most when my Family and I disagree on anything. I think: Wayyyyyyy too much. About the life I could have had if I had of just listened to the Lord in the first place, instead of going with my own way. I hate: LIARS and THIEVES! I know hate is a strong word, but I can't help myself right now.... I hear: The voice of the Lord every time I try to do something out of his will for my life. I cry: Mostly at night when everything and everyone is gone and over with. I care: About everyone...even those that I don't know. It's in my nature I think. I love too hard. I feel alone: At night when it's quite. When my mind starts to wander. I listen: To that little voice inside my head that tells me everything in going to be alright. I hide: ...

Okay so the computer system has been down here at work and I haven't been able to blog or read anyone's blog for the past three days. Well they came up like 40 min ago and I am happy as a clam! I love to blog (write) it's my way of releasing anything that is being held hostage in my soul . Damn! that was tight!!!! Anyway, I had a small situation to take place at work today. You see I believe I am the most miss-understood woman on the face of the planet...and I can say that because I don't know every woman on the face of the planet, and they don't know me. This is what happen. I was having a great day until my co worker (the snitch!) started to freak out about the system still being down from the horrible Strom that took place on last week. Which by the way claimed several lives, including that of a 6 year old girl on a camping trip with her family. *a moment of silence for those lost lives................Amen* Anyway the storm knocked our our computer system and...

Okay so I went shopping with an associate of mine last week and it became more then I "Bargained" for. I had to pick up my Mother's birthday gift (which was on Sat...Millz, she said you could have stopped on by...."Knuckle head" now that's love girl!) and do some shopping of my own while I was out. I went to Carson's first which is my favorite department store, but they didn't have what I was looking for so we went to Lord and Taylor and Fields. Now Fields is a fabulous store as well, except I always get into major trouble whenever I enter that store. Well I found what I was looking for, for my Mother and I made my purchase. A few steps away from me was the girl I had gone to the store with and she was looking at some jewelry. This girl and I are not really that close and we might hang out every now and then, esplly to do some shopping. I met her through a longtime friend of mine who is stationed in Iraq right now. (missing you Laroy!) She and La...

Okay so besides the fact that I just broke off an unhealthy relationship with a certain SBC man, I also had to get rid of "so called" number 5 for this year. This was a woman that I have helped through almost every facet in her life. Through her breast cancer scare, through her home going into foreclosure, through her child's father going to prison, and here recently, her boyfriend drama. Mess after mess I was there, for you see that is how I do all my friendships...I'm there to the end. How is it that when two ppl are arguing and fighting, someone who is not even there (me) gets thrown into the mix? That was something that always concerned me.....always concerned me. Here it is, my latest "so called" casualty Bran pronounced (Bra-wn) like the paper towel and this other woman we both know but of which Bran had more of a relationship with, got into a fight and somewhere between the slaps and screams; my name was dropped and I got a horrible phone call from B...

.......Yes this is for YOU! U.W.R.A:)

My Favorite Quotes: 1. " We allow our ignorance to prevail upon us and make us think we can survive alone, alone in patches, alone in groups, alone in races, even alone in genders. " Maya Angelou 2. " Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy. " Anne Frank, Diary of a Young Girl, 1952 3. " True love brings up everything - you're allowing a mirror to be held up to you daily. " Jennifer Aniston, O Magazine, February 2004 4. " Beauty? Let me tell you something - being thought of as 'a beautiful woman' has spared me nothing in life. No heartache, no trouble. Love has been difficult. Beauty is essentially meaningless and it is always transitory. " Halle Berry 5. " Just because you love someone doesn't mean you have to be involved with them. Love is not a bandage to cover wounds. " Hugh Elliott, Standing Room Only weblog, February 16, 2004 6. " Courage is fear that has said its prayers. " Dorothy Be...

*Due to Wonderful circumstances...beyond all logic and reasoning...the Thursday Thirteen will be postponed* Okay so I am so excited right now I can hardly breathe! I have such fabulous news and I can't wait to share it with you...but first I must take you back a little bit so that you will get the bigger picture. First off when ever I needed a ride for church or whatever the case was, (because where I worked at the time of my very blog was about 50 steps from where I live.) somehow, folks would always forget to come and get me or worst yet drive off and leave me. When my Mother got her car, which I helped her get...she was really stingy with it. But hey I am a city girl and walking, taking the train or subway was no big deal to me. Well anyway, it was like pulling teeth trying to get people to drive your girl around, not that I'm spoiled or anything....well maybe I am just a little bit. *wink* Then later on when I got this wonderful new position out here in South Holland IL, w...

Okay so I get this phone call from my girlfriend used to watch my pug Funky for me when I first got her from my ex on that cold rainy night in November, and yet she still found herself watching him now that the new career has me working later then I care too. Well at first when I began to ask about how my lil Funky was, it seemed as though she wanted to tell me something but didn't quite know how to if you know what I mean. So we began to talk about something else. We talked about how she and her new friend were doing fine and that she thinks he might be the one. I was so happy to hear that, she needed some one to love. Anyway by the time we had chatted up about new friends, church, school and work it was wayyy past my bed time and I needs my 8 hours, or I am simply no good the next day. So I ended the call by telling her I would come by there on Saturday evening and pick up Funky so we could spend some quality time...you see I work crazy hours and I wouldn't dare dream of leav...