A Super-Woman's Diary

Okay so this morning I'm in the shower and my phone rings...I step out and answer it thinking it might be a my girl I'm having lunch with today at 1:00. Well it wasn't my girl it was one of the many jobs I applied for. Actually one of the ones I really wanted. The guy on the other end says... "Deirdre? This is Charles with ********* And I need you to take this number down. Ready? the number is ***-***-**** call that number and they will et you up with your training date...or by the way, you got the job. any questions? Good well welcome to *********." WTF? What just happen here? Forgetting that I was buck a** naked at the time, I begin to run around my apartment (WINDOWS UP) screaming "I Got It!! I Got It!! at the top of my lungs with my hands waving high above my head. I looked like a maniac I'm sure, but I was so excited about getting that job ya'll. One of my girlfriends who just so happens to be one of those "Negative People" tha...

Okay so my youngest nephew's birthday is coming up and I volunteer to throw him a party at the House Of Kicks. My sister wanted to have it at the house, but she didn't want anymore then 10 children in her house at one time. (rolling my eyes) How are you not gonna have more then 10 children at a birthday party for a CHILD! My goodness ya'll...it's the crack I swear! Well me and my big mouth I say "let's have it at the house of kicks Kim. It's big and the children can run free and have more fun." She agreed and we start making the plans. Now his birthday is on the 3rd of September and at first she wanted to have it on the day after but I said "no way Kim, let's have it on the day of." she agreed and we made the final arrangements for 3:00 pm Saturday September 3rd 2005...But how many of you know that not all things are etched in stone? Some things are subject to change. Well later on after the plans were made I find out that my church...

Okay so as I am preparing last night for my official first day off work in like FOREVER! due impart to the fact that I now have no job at all, I get a phone call from a girlfriend that I hadn't heard from in years. She is crying all hysterically and what not telling me that her boyfriend just beat her up and now she has locked herself in the bathroom....wtf? Seriously ya'll I'm not making this mess up! She asked me could I please come and get her and take her to a shelter or something... Now first of all ya'll what the h*ll am I gonna do when I get there and dude won't let her go? Beat his a** or something?? NOT SO MUCH!! See I am a self proclaimed DIVA and this here DIVA don't fight nor does she like to get her a** kicked. So try to calm her down and suggest that instead if calling ME...why don't you call the POLICE. She went on to say that she didn't want him to go to jail, she just wants to be free from him. Reluctantly I get up and go over there...

(This quiz will pick which Sex and the City character best matches your dating style and makes a prediction for your romantic future!)...I know....lame right? It was fun anyway d*mnit! :) I took this quiz at my friend James' request and here were my results: You Are Most Like Carrie! You're quirky, flirty, and every guy's perfect first date. But can the guy in question live up to your romantic ideal? It's tough for you to find the right match - you're more than a little picky. Never fear... You've got a great group of friends and a great closet of clothes no matter what! Romantic prediction: You'll fall for someone this year... Totally different from any guy you've dated . I thought it might be fun for my blogger buddies to take as well, even if you are a guy!! Hey we have some guy 'Samanthas' out there don't front!!:) click the link in my title. Let me know who you are!:)

I am just getting back from a wonderful evening with some girlfriends of mine who are feeling the "FREE" just like me...I was supposed to take my nephews to the House of Kicks, but them Negroes!! hit the streets before I got there. So I opted to hang out with my girls who are celebrating freedom in one way or another. First you have Shelley the 37 year old appraiser/ lesbian(she is our Joan Clayton) She is the one of us that has the most money, so everytime we hang out we know she is going to flip the bill:) (Thanks Shells!!) I know Iv'e got a lot of nerve (read: ADM ya'll), but I'm broke as h*ll right now! Shelley is celebrating her singledom from her crazy ex- girlfriend Wanda. She had to file a restraining order agaisnt her just a few weeks ago. So now that the Chile has move out of town Shelley is FREE to "date the chi fantastic"... end quote! Then you have Nicole (she is our Maya) She is the one of us that is married and has 1 small child. No...

Well today was the last day of summer camp and I couldn't be more happy about. Don't get me wrong, I will miss the children and my lovely young co-workers (Toni, Bird, "J" and Evan) but I AM GLAD TO BE DONE! (whew!!) I literally counted the last two weeks down like a man who is in prison and marks the days until he is set free. Not that I felt like I was in prison or anything, it's just that I am finally free to pursue THE career that God has for me. I was very grateful to get that job at the last minute because it kept food on the table and clothes on my back, however, when 3:00 pm hit today...ya'll I flew out that door and jumped in my car, rolled every freakin window down and just breathed in all that freedom that awaited me. I was tired as heck but I was on a new mission. A mission to explore my new found freedom from all the drama that had eluded me for the past 9 1/2 years. Thursday was a great day for me. I had two interviews and three job offers...

I have a question...Why is it that when a Good Man...comes along, some women don't know how to treat him? Now before I start writing this entry I just want all the women out there (who's toes I might step on) to know..."I ain't scared of yo a**es...so get over it!!" They done messed up giving this sister here a space to speak her mind!! Here's the deal. My girl Tasha...that's right I'm naming names!! She has this awesomely(is that's a word?) wonderful Man at home. He is very very good to her ya'll!! He works a full time job, picks up the child from the daycare, and he Loves to cook. I said he LOVES TO COOK!! That right there oughta get him an amen if nothing else. He has never gone out on their marriage she has even testified on that, and he loves her dirty drawls ya'll. This girl doesn't even have to work!! wtf?? He told her after they were married that she could quit her job and be a full time wife and mother if she ...

Okay well today was a better day then yesterday. I woke up and said to my self and myself said huh? (lol) Let's try to keep our sh*t together today okay? And I did just that! I went to work and laughed and played with the children and talked freely with my co-workers. Today was a good day! Then one of my friends called me and dished me out some more drama and for a split second I almost lost it again...but then I remembered the pact that I had made with myself this morning, and I quickly got a grip. Now anyone who knows me knows that I absolutely loves my cell phone. And when it is off (cause of course I talk to much) I can barely take it. I sleep with the d*mn thing ya'll so not to miss any calls!! I'm a mess...yes I know. Anyway the pact that I made with myself was so strong that when them gossiping niggas!! called me...I didn't even answer my phone. That's right I did answer my phone all day! well, with the exception of Tress and Yellowboi (he owes me some mon...

*After Tuesdays debacle...I need to re-load* Well with the help of http://princessdominique.blogspot.com (thanks girl) I am finally able to finish my list and perhaps put an end to this tagging once and for all (they made me say it:) I absolutely LOVE music so this list won't be hard to put together at all!! http://teejsays.blogspot.com has put me on to some really nice talent. I will share one with you guys as well. (Rashaun Patterson...get that!) I never really thought I would like Will Downing. That is until http://daahsar.blogspot.com had his video playing on his spot!! That song relaxed the h*ll out of me for real ya'll!! Now, http://thefoxybrownshow.blogspot.com probably listens to whatever the h*ll makes him happy (party on foxy...bigbaby!!) which ain't a bad idea ya'll!! So here goes my list and with it I'm tagging my buddies: http://marcjacobsgirl.blogspot.com http://adivainscrubs.blogspot.com http://mamcw.blogspot.com http://sonyared....

As I sit here at my computer and type this new entry...I cry. I feel today like I just can't take another freakin thing!! I woke up this morning with a smile on my face and ended my day with tears and a major headache. Now I'm writing this to get any sympathy from my fellow blogger buddies nor am I trying to make the people who pissed me off and hurt my feelings mad or disgruntle. I am just trying to find an outlet for this pain I feel right now and writing always makes me feel better....that and a new pair of SHOES!! In about 3 more days camp will be over and I (unless God performs a fast miracle) will be out of a job. Now that is not the thing that upsets me. What upsets me is the fact that the person responsible for me losing my job, is continually making my life a living hell...and she somehow "doesn't seem to see it" ...well if she could look inside my heart right now she would know different. I have been faithful to my job and to her (as an employee). I...

An Ode To "T" * A Spoken Word Poem* How could an angel break my heart? Why didn't he catch my falling star...and make wish? Man I'm pissed right now - at how - this manchild could go to such lengths to shut me out - without a doubt he captured me, cultivated me...I was caught! In a web of lies and deceit - I was trying to be discreet and maintain my lady like attributes, but he tasted my forbiden fruits! and all hell broke lose. Why in the hell did I give it up so quick and so soon, must have been the moon shining through that open "one room apartment between a little tiny space"...Chico Debarge said it first and love truly hurts. Shit! I can feel him all the way up to my throat - as he took a toke off my love - man I think I'm in love - or in heaven on cloud nine and it's about damn time!! I waited so long to get my groove back - but will my heart stay intacted? matter of fact - he broke it once already...got damnit!! but he don't even know it!!...

Well, what happen was I was sitting at home in bed with Ben and jerry...(lol) watching 'Waiting to Exhale' and when the part where Bernadette goes to the shop and gets all her d**n hair cut off...I had an epiphany!! "I should cut mine off to." I mean for Bernadette it was a symbolism of change and freedom... I need to make some serious changes in my life as well. I started with my job as a teacher...well technically I didn't change that job, my ex-boss did the changing for me (read: "The Emancipation of Dee-Dee" for more details on that one) Then I changed friends...well I got rid of all the phony crackhead ones and found me a few that were about something. Ain't nothing worse then a phony, low-down, good for nothing, lying, begging, back stabbing crackhead friend I tell you that!! (read: "This is babycakes..." for more details on that one) Then I changed my email/IM address, cause it was dudes from all over the place sending me IM...

Well, it's 2:26 in the morning and I just got in the house from having one of the best evenings I have had in a long time. I of course called Taj and we set up a time to met which at first was supposed to take place this afternoon, but we both wanted to see one another before then. He called me around 5:00 and I was just about to leave out for my second job...(yeah, a sister has to be able to afford a new pair of Manolo's pretty soon) So anyway I told him I was on my way out to work and asked could we meet after I get off. He agreed and I drove to work with this sick feeling in my stomach that almost caused me to pass up my exit I ain't lying!! See the plan was to go to work last night and work on my brave. I was going to practice all the things I was gonna say to him, giving me enough time to shake off the jitters and find something to take for that queezy feeling in the pit of my stomach...which come to find out there is no cure for. I was almost dreading 11:00 to com...

Well I was having a very crappy day due in part to where I work...man I need a another job like ASAP!! I mean everyday it's something with this place. How many of you have ever had a job where everytime you step foot in the place it's some more drama going on? I mean I already have to deal with about 25 screaming children, I don't need to deal with grown a** screaming adults to. I felt like breaking into a chorus of "Gimme a Break...I sure deserve it"...I mean the adults don't know how to talk to people all they know how to do is dictate and holler at people. I tell you give certain nephews!! a title or position and all hell just might break loose! Well needless to say when I got home all I wanted to do was take my bath, check my emails, read some blogs, pop some corn and watch a little T.V. I just wanted to relax and get the day off my mind. As I was checking my emails(you know the usual stuff) all the junk mail...the so called free laptop computer one is...

So today was a pretty good day. I went to work and no one got on my nerves, then I came home and finally took my braids out (whew!!) It didn't take long as I thought it would cause lord knows I wasn't about to pay the Africans 50 something dollars to the same d**n thing I just did. I was about to go to bed when my computer went...(ding!!) that's the sound I get when someone is sends me an IM. So I go to check it cause even though I am tired as heck...I am just as nosy...lol:) I see that it is from yellowboi, and I can see by his status he is not feeling well. Why is it that when you break up with someone(dude) not to long after said break-up, your ex or some dude from your past shows up? Why? Why?...Here's that conversation... Yellowboi: WAKE UP!!!!!! Me : what's up? Yellowboi: Chillin'...got a slight fracture on the bridge of my nose me: Awwwwwwww, poor baby! Are you okay? Yellowboi: naw im good. head hurts me: Sorry to hear that...what happen?...

Okay so this evening after a long day at work with my two nephews, and a bunch of other screaming children I decide to hang out with my sister and of course my nephews. First of all I cancelled my outing to the Destiny's Child concert because I am still not ready to date again after my last debacle...(that's right I'm not over it yet damn it!) I was supposed to go to work, but I said "naw!! imma hang out with the fam!!"  Well, we decided that we were gonna go to Fields and the Children's Place because the boys needed something white for 'all white day' at camp tomorrow. When we got to the first store(Fields) my oldest nephew picked out what he wanted to wear and we took it up to the register to pay...now I don't have any children and I spend almost every waking hour with my nephews (since they attend the camp where I work), so naturally I am assuming that his mother is going to pay...right? Wrong!! The nice lady behind the register who put me in...

I could not wait for this movie to come out man! First of all it is a John Singleton film and you know that nephew there gots a lot on his mind already...(he should have a blogspot) I mean his past films left you somewhere thinking about some s**t for real. So naturally I wanted to check it out. Then look at the line up in this film...you got, Mark Walburg's sexy white self, Tyrese wit his ol' chocolate sexy self, Andre 3000 wit his ol' Vegan eating sexy self and...then you got Terrence Howard's ol' hustler sexy self too...this movie was like the food for my loins I ain't lying!! LMAO!! It's the story of four different men(two black, two white) who had the same mother. A woman who took them in as boys and raised them to be men...I say she took them in as BOYS!! and raised them to be MEN!! that part right there ought to win him a oscar. I like the way he (john) used black and white men to play these characters...he should have a Latino dude in the mix ...

Okay, so I am naturally happy for everyone. I am the first one to congratulate people when something good happens in their lives. I even try to help them out in anyway that I can in order for their special moments to run smooth and everyone is happy!!!!!! So, can someone tell me why in the h*ll did my girl Mia ...(from marcia syndrome, do you have it? ) take full advantage of me for the sake of her wedding? Why? Why? Here it is. Mia just got married today. The wedding was supposed to take place in Las Vegas, but at the last minute they had to have it here because Carson's (her fiance) family couldn't leave town due to his grandfather taking ill. Well this is where I come in. I am taking classes to become a professional wedding and events planner, so Mia knew that I would jump at the chance to help out. Notice how I said "help out" I had no intention of planning this girls entire wedding!! First of all Im trying to be happy for her a** as it is, and her pushing he...

Well, for those of you who don't know...."I'm yet single again! Yep that's right, I'm all alone again. And guess what? I'm okay with that. I guess it took a really good relationship to fall apart, in order for me to see that even good guys Screw up! So of course I threw on my "Sad and Lonely" CD collection for a quick minute and sulked a while. And while I was wallowing in my own self pity, A song by Lucy Pearl came on (how did that get in there?) The song is called "Trippin" Now, don't let the title mislead you. In this song dude is the one trippin' and girlfriend is the one slippin' Yep, she is treating dudes whole world. So with that in mind....I'm getting dressed and hitting the good streets! PEEEAAACE! Trippin....Lyrics I said I’m not trippin, cause you were out slippin and now I’m out dipping Don’t knock on my doorI said I’m not trippin’No I’m not complaining’cause you were out slippingJust don’t knock on my door. ...

No...man...No mo! "I gave my heart to you I gave up my friends like you said I should do Put aside my smile for you Threw out my dreams if you said you didn't approveI gave my mind, compromise my life just to see I'd findyou were trying hold me back slowly you throwing me off my track Disappointed again I'm through with love, I'm through with it, through with love,Through with it, I'm through with love, I'm through with it, I'm through with love,I'm finally giving it up,I have given so much in the past for a love I never had I’m I'm through with love, I'm through with it, through with love, I'm finally giving it up" DC lyrics D**n!....D**n!....D**n! I can't believe it! Why would he do this to me? I know why...cause I'm to "Deep" for his b*ll S**t! That's why. Okay, I have been in seeing this guy for about oh let's say 3 years(off and on) and we have this real sweet relationship. Let me explain.... ...

I am having a real Funky day ya'll...Help Me! Why is it that when people get on your d**n nerves, they act like they don't know it? My boss...(let me re-phrase my ex-boss, as of June 17, 2005) is really starting to piss me off! Okay let me break it down from the beginning.(breathe dee-dee) I have been a teacher at this day care center for about 91/2 years. I started working there as a floater and eventually got my own classroom in 1999. Now in 1998 I was sent to school for my assoc. in Child Care by the owner of the school. She felt it was the best thing for me to do. Notice how I said "she felt". She even went and asked our pastor if I should and of course she said yes. Well, needless to say she sent me to school because my dumb a** didn't put my foot dawn and tell her h*ll to the no! Okay, I go to these classes which are all the way in Richton Park some d**n where and receive my asssoc. in 99...yeah it only took a year. Don't ask me how, all I did was ...